I feel this need to apologize, I meant to make the last entry only viewable for myself...but then I thought, no, I promised my husband to start expressing my feelings and so I erupted emotion...now I feel guilty for sharing something so private (though I do thank you from the bottom of my heart for your kind words and thoughts).

And for what? To have the doctor not even touch the lump protruding from her body? To have the doctor say they aren't even going to send the sample they swabbed to a lab for examination? To have the doctor not even feel around the inside (sorry men) of her body, which has been done by every ob-gyn I've ever been to. After my own cancer was removed in 1998 I had to have a pap every 3 months for 3 years, so I feel I'm a bit of an expert, and nothing sits well with me about the exam.

At least, right now, cancer is out of our minds. The doctor told my sister that she'd take a blood sample if she was worried about cancer, to which my sister queried "Do you think I have to be worried? I wasn't until yesterday when that other doctor kept dropping the C - bomb without offering any other options or possible ailments, so if you're not worried then don't."

The doctor replies, "They don't know what they are talking about. It's probably just a bad infection."

Then why in the hell are they working there? To freak people out? To put unnecessary stress on a young girl? It worked.

Here's an emotion for you, extremely pissed off. I'm going to write a letter to the head of that clinic tonight.  

She's going to take the anti-biotics and see if anything clears up and, if not, we are going to get a second opinion. Even though I'm no longer concerned about cancer (Damn that doctor for putting it in our heads!), I'm still very concerned about ovarian cysts and other female issues. My fingers are crossed, though, that it may only be a bad infection that will clear up after a few days of pills.

I thank you again for all your kindness after my emotional outburst and, hopefully, someday soon we will find out what the problem truly is.